I just talked with Santos on the phone… I don’t know how to feel. Certainy I feel fucking bad, first of all, that he is working instead of studying… that’s just not right, and even worse… that it isn’t his desicion.He’s having some money problems, so probably i won’t see him in a while… And all I can do is just… nothing… only keep living here as if nothing is happening… go to school, do homework. I feel so impotent.I would love to help him, but I don’t the resources… I just can’t wait to finish school and start working… i’ll get him out of his house inmediatly… is for the best.I hope this will pass quickly… I want him to be happy. That makes me stronger.
Some thoughts to get out of my head.